Saturday, January 31, 2009'♫
Cello, my everything! ♫
Hey...came back from a long day from band...
Its somehow very tiring for me
I was struggling all the way...
I couldn't take it...
I really do miss her
I didn't know why i started crying...
I must be useless...
Well...I said that...its been so long le...its time you let go...
Yea...But why am i shedding tears...up till now...
Its been so long...isn't it time to let her go
Well...all i have to do is to...say i no longer love her...
Its hard...to say sth i don't want to...but i have to...
I really love her...i really do...
I will not interfere with anybody's situation anymore...
Its enough...
Friday, January 30, 2009'♫
Cello, my everything! ♫
Hello...
I'm posting my blog at home currently...
Well...yea
I had high fever this morning so i didn't go to sch though i really wanted to
Nth much to do at home though...
Start to miss my classmates and friends...
Planning to go for band since i feel alot better now...
I don't know why my fever keep coming back and subsiding...
Maybe i contracted some sort of serious illness and may die from it?
Hahas...very hard to say...
Went to see the doctor...they just say the same thing...so nth much...
I hope i can get well soon,i cannot afford to miss lessons but...i had no choice
I bet everybody are happy that i didn't go to sch...hahas
It somehow feels that way to me...i think i better go rest...so i can go for band ltr.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009'♫
Cello, my everything! ♫
Well...Hi ppl...
I'm back here to post sth
I'm very sick now though...
I still have to struggle tml cause i had to get my IC done
Well...wish me luck..hahas
Somehow...i really wish that she would talk to me once more...
Like normal friends but its okay.
I really do miss you...
I don't really know iif i am really sick or am i love sick...
I hope it will be all over soon...
Tuesday, January 27, 2009'♫
Cello, my everything! ♫
For this year,2009
Everybody moved on...
Everybody except me...
I'm stuck at 2008...
Things in 2009 started bad for me...
So i lied to myself...and stayed in 2008.
People move on...thats for sure.
But i am the only exception...cause i hang onto things which are no longer mine
I'm stupid...i agree
I'm stubborn...i agree
Douglas,it's time to move on...i agree too
But i couldn't let go off those things...i couldn't let go you.
Looks like i'm pretty annoying to everybody...huh?
I had lost all motivation to do things...
All hopes and dreams are all long gone for me...
It's time pick myself up???
Well...i'm still waiting for that particular person...to lend a helping hand.
I know that possibility is quite low though...
But i'm still waiting...
I may have changed for the worst...
I agree my attitude and character sucks...
Other people out there are much more better.
I totally agree that...i'm a failure...i'm a jerk
There is no point living on...
People told me,"Douglas,stop it!!!You are a nuisance...why do you keep talking about what happened in the past?!"
Want to know why?
I still miss,love,think and care about those things in the past.
I regretted...what happened in the past.
Just because i couldn't let go
Just because i still think about it
Just because i miss it
Just because i care about it
Just because i still love _______
I'm suffering in pain everyday.
All i want is for _______ to be happy
Thats all...i didn't expect that i did so many foolish things
I didn't expect i would hurt someone so much
I didn't expect to get hated by so many ppl
I know i couldn't make things be back where they belong...
I know that nothing will ever be the same again.
One day i'll leave...
I'll leave and everybody won't remember me...
All the pain and suffering i cause for everybody...will be gone...
One last request...whatever you see here...don't talk about it
It hurts alot...for me
Monday, January 26, 2009'♫
Cello, my everything! ♫
Hey..Happy Chinese New Year everybody!!!
Somehow this year's New Year ain't that happy for me
Hahas..Feel very tired every single day..
Thinking about things everyday...
Whats more...it hurts alot for me?
I must be stupid...haha
I still miss her...and i am wrong to do that
I cannot do that..i don't have the rights...
I'll stay be your side...but i won't interfere with your things...
I'll support you no matter what your decision is...i will still be your friend...
