Tuesday, January 27, 2009'♫
Cello, my everything! ♫
For this year,2009
Everybody moved on...
Everybody except me...
I'm stuck at 2008...
Things in 2009 started bad for me...
So i lied to myself...and stayed in 2008.
People move on...thats for sure.
But i am the only exception...cause i hang onto things which are no longer mine
I'm stupid...i agree
I'm stubborn...i agree
Douglas,it's time to move on...i agree too
But i couldn't let go off those things...i couldn't let go you.
Looks like i'm pretty annoying to everybody...huh?
I had lost all motivation to do things...
All hopes and dreams are all long gone for me...
It's time pick myself up???
Well...i'm still waiting for that particular person...to lend a helping hand.
I know that possibility is quite low though...
But i'm still waiting...
I may have changed for the worst...
I agree my attitude and character sucks...
Other people out there are much more better.
I totally agree that...i'm a failure...i'm a jerk
There is no point living on...
People told me,"Douglas,stop it!!!You are a nuisance...why do you keep talking about what happened in the past?!"
Want to know why?
I still miss,love,think and care about those things in the past.
I regretted...what happened in the past.
Just because i couldn't let go
Just because i still think about it
Just because i miss it
Just because i care about it
Just because i still love _______
I'm suffering in pain everyday.
All i want is for _______ to be happy
Thats all...i didn't expect that i did so many foolish things
I didn't expect i would hurt someone so much
I didn't expect to get hated by so many ppl
I know i couldn't make things be back where they belong...
I know that nothing will ever be the same again.
One day i'll leave...
I'll leave and everybody won't remember me...
All the pain and suffering i cause for everybody...will be gone...
One last request...whatever you see here...don't talk about it
It hurts alot...for me
